What we did during our holidays

Ugh! This post was all typed up, photos inserted and ready to be published, when I saw this in the upper right hand corner of my screen:
And I clicked on the “classic mode” link, WITHOUT pressing “save draft” first and lost everything I had done yesterday. And WordPress hadn’t had time to automatically update on its own. Double Ugh.
Here’s version two of this post, but probably not as good as it was yesterday.


Mr Siili and I split our holiday/vacation time up this year into two two week periods. Mostly this was done so that Paxlet would only have to go to one summer daycare instead of two or three. It worked out quite nicely.

The first part of our holiday started the long weekend of Juhannus (mid-summer). It was typical Juhannus weather: rainy off and on, a bit chilly with some sun peaking out every once in a while. The not-so-perfect weather didn’t stop us from doing things and it was especially nice to have time off from work.

The second two weeks was hot, hot, hot! Finnish summers are lucky to reach 20C (70F) for a few weeks during the entire summer, with a couple of days to one week at 25C+. This summer, however, we had almost 5 weeks of 25-30C (77-86F)! (We were one day short of breaking the “most days over 25C in a row.) While this was just a tad bit too hot, we still had fun!

This is what we did during our holidays, in photos, in no particular order.

We visited Paxlet’s cousins for a day.
It just so happened that Paxlet (right) and his cousin dressed almost identical. Paxlet had the most fun with his youngest cousin, as the other two are in their teens already, but he did play with them all. Especially on the trampoline. We also went forest strawberry hunting; serious business for our boy!

We did some crafts and arts. Paxlet glued and stuck stickers where he wanted them, without help. He also cut some paper pieces, with help. The colander/strainer with pipe cleaners sticking out of it was something I saw on another blog. It was a hit and we’ve done it again since then.
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Snuggled with Rusty cat, when not chasing and screeching after him and Mansi cat.

We went to the grandparents, played in water, went to the beach, went to the park, played in soapy water, saw Saimi (brown horse) and Hansu horses,
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This next photo requires special mention. While at the park, outside the goat pen, some birds (in this picture a Jackdaw) kept landing on the fence. Paxlet wanted to hug the birds!! He was quite upset that the birds wouldn’t let him get close enough to hug them.

We stayed home, went to parks, played with water, met up with friends, went to more parks, played with colored water. You can make some pretty cool (and gross) colors if you start with just the basics of red, yellow and blue.
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7 weeks, #2

Today’s actually 7 weeks and 1 day, I just couldn’t be bothered to post yesterday. I was way too exhausted! After getting Paxlet to bed, Mr Siili and I watch 1,3 TV shows and then I crawled into bed.

I am just so exhausted lately. I wonder if I got to bed early enough if I would be less tired or if this froglet (bean/baby/tadpole) would still make me just as tired. I have been coming home a bit early each day this week and taking a short (20-40 min) nap, but sometimes I wake up feeling even more exhausted than before I laid down. Thankfully the weekend is here. I most likely won’t get to sleep in, but I will be able to nap when Paxlet naps and then Mr Siili might just take care of Paxlet for a bit while I sleep longer. Ahhh, sleep!

I know I’m such a broken record on this next issue, but it is that much in my mind, or rather stomach area: morning all-day sickness. I seem to be fine for the first bit when I wake up and start feeling yucky about an hour after waking, which is the exact time I am dragging Paxlet to daycare. And then again in the evening, once Paxlet is in bed I seem to get some relief. The rest of the day, nausea is more on than off. This week I’ve tried dried/candied ginger, ginger & lemon tea, ginger cookies, lemon water and eating more protein. Some of it seems to help for a short bit, but then it all comes back again. I knew I was lucky last time around not having hardly any nausea and never wished to experience it. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. However, I’m still very very very thankful I’m not puking.

I’ve been having minor headaches off and on. I think most of it is due to the fluctuating weather right now. It’s that time of year when we have a decent amount of thunder and lightning storms. Or at least out of nowhere rain storms. Last night was no exception. There was a huge thunder and lightning storm that passed just south of us, with one lightning and thunder strike right on top of us. Yowzers! It was exhilarating.

We still don’t have a nickname for this little bean. I’m bugging Mr Siili to help me come up with something again this time around. I don’t want to call it “bean” or “peanut” and Mr Siili doesn’t like “tadpole” because Tad is too close to a name and he doesn’t want to end up naming the kid that. LOL

Here’s some of the foods I made yesterday in hopes of combating nausea. The first picture is of my oven-baked eggs getting ready to go into the oven. The 2nd picture is the eggs being done. They sounds and taste so appealing to me right now! And the third picture is some ginger cookies I made. I don’t think they are helping at all. For starters, they are sweet and sweet just doesn’t go right now. In addition, I’m not a huge fan of ginger, but I am willing to try anything!

What are you tips and tricks for fighting off nausea? I’m desperate here!




Back to work

Day two of being back to work after a 2 week holiday/vacation and we’ve survived so far. Just and just, but we have survived. I have it in my head to write about some of our holiday, but I am just so exhausted each evening by the time Paxlet is asleep. Yes, pregnancy is kicking my butt this time around. We didn’t do much for our two weeks off. Heck, we didn’t really leave home unless it was to go to the store for food, much less leave town. It was a good holiday though. Lots of heat, heat, heat, which mean lots of water play for Paxlet.

Anywho, it isn’t even 9:30 pm yet and I am laying in bed. Once I hit post, I’m shutting down my computer and going to bed early tonight!! Wish me luck getting lots of restful shut-eye. I hope to write more sooner rather than later.

6 weeks, #2

My biggest symptom is still this weird mild (most of the time) nausea, that thankfully is not making me puke! Mostly my tummy just feels a bit queasy and food doesn’t sound good at all. The last couple of days, this has gotten a bit more pronounced. I don’t think my nausea was this bad the first time around and I’ll be happy when the nausea goes away.

I had a bit of pink-brown spotting the other day. Not much, but enough that I noticed it. I was already on panty-watch. (I know too much of what can possibly happen.) This bit of spotting isn’t making my panty-watch efforts go away. Hmph. I’m not worried about the spotting, unless I see more. I know that whatever happens, happens and I can’t do much about it.

Paxlet is definitely getting into the Twos. With less energy and more tiredness, plus still tons of heat, it is hard to chase after him at times. I know he is just being his age, but sometimes…I’m just too tired. While I haven’t exactly been getting to bed much earlier, I have been taking naps several times when Paxlet is down for his nap. How am I going to cope when I head back to work next week? Thankfully there is a small closet-sized room that has a reclining chair, which its intended purpose is exactly this and I can take a quick rest if need be. Although, this might mean I need to tell my immediate boss earlier than I was thinking.

Speaking of work and bosses. I don’t have any worries about telling my boss. I know she is 100% supportive of family building and will be totally thrilled for me, as we have quickly discussed my (and her) situation previously. As for co-workers…they will find out at some point.

Another thing about work…I have no idea what I am going to wear when the weather gets a bit chillier. Yes, we are starting to feel the fall chilliness in the breeze and mornings. During the summer, I’ve been wearing all my dresses, skirts and some shorts. The dress code at work is quite relaxed (if you want), but jeans and other pants are just not going to cut it. I want nothing pressing on my stomach, already! Thankfully I have one pair of black maternity pants, but you can only wear those so many times a week.

I haven’t told any more people this week (after most family and closest friends last week). I’ve almost told some people, but just couldn’t be bothered with them congratulating me. I don’t want to be center of attention. Does that sound strange? Anyone else feel this way?
I also don’t want to have to hear that people say they “knew it would happen easily after you had Paxlet/relaxed/stopped whatever”.

Less than two weeks until my first neuvola appointment. I got the papers I need to fill out in the mail and they are all filled-in. Some background information about me, alcohol and drug use history for Mr Siili and I (we are such lushes, not!) and also dietary habits for the both of us.

Edited: I forgot these few things I wanted to put down.
-My nose is feeling quite stuffy.
-I’m feeling more gaseous (mostly burps).
-Laying on my left side is uncomfortable. Uncomfortable to the point of making me feel a bit sick. However, putting my heating bean-bag (not heated) under my stomach helps. I didn’t use this bean-bag until much later previously.

5 weeks, #2

I enjoyed doing weekly posts of my pregnancy with Paxlet and think I’ll do it again with this one. It was a great way to track my thoughts, feelings and changes going on in my body. I also thought it would be fun to be able to compare the two pregnancies. So, here I go!

First off, I need to figure out a name to call this little tadpole. Hubby helped me come up with the name Paxlet when I was 7-8 weeks pregnant, so we have a bit of time still. *grin*

I don’t feel like I have too much in the way of symptoms at the moment. Other than AF not showing up, I’ve got some mild nausea. Although, it isn’t all the time. Mostly when I don’t eat often enough and then I just feel bleh. Almost like you’ve been on an amusement ride that spun you round and round one too many times. As long as I eat regularly, I can eat most anything I want. But if I don’t eat often enough, then nothing sounds good. I’ve got some protein bars that I’ve been using to take a bite of here and there when the “nothing sounds good” phase happens and usually that is enough to settle my stomach and let me eat proper food.

I also can’t put pressure on my stomach, such as crossing my arms across my body. That just makes me feel uncomfortable and sort of sick to my stomach.

The next two symptoms I’m not fully attributing to pregnancy at the moment, because I think they are more due to the heat we are having here: lots of needing to pee and tiredness. It is hot here! Uncommonly so. We usually get a week or so of 25-30C (77-86F) weather, but this summer we have had it for 3-4 weeks now. I normally drink a decent amount of water/tea on a daily basis, with it being hot, I’m drinking even more! Hence, the need to pee more. Also, I believe that heat just saps strength and energy out of a person. I’m not the only one feeling a bit heat-tired, Paxlet talks about “going to sleep” and being tired even if he’s recently woken up from a nap.

I finally called neuvola (maternity clinic) and have my first appointment on August 19th (I’ll be 7+ weeks). That seems like ages away at the moment. I know the time will go by slowly at times, yet so quickly. Here’s to enjoying every minute of this pregnancy!

Edited to add: I have now told my closest friends about this pregnancy. That means my parents and Mr Siili’s parents, my siblings and some friends have been told. Mr Siili’s siblings will need to be told at some point, but I just don’t talk to them that often, so it feels more awkward telling them. For other people, it will happen when it happens.

6 years of blogging

I’ve had this blog for 6 years. It’s gone through several transitions and a name change, but I’m still here. I’ve blogged in other places (iVillage.com) and formats (my own webpage/journal/blog creation) before this, but this blog is the one that has stuck around. I started it around the the time I said good by to the Nuva Ring (birth control) for good. However, I didn’t start writing more regularly until a year and a half later when TTC just got me down and I needed a place to get it all out.

I may not be here as often as I was at some points, but this is still my little place on the web. I love the connections and friends I’ve made and the lives I’ve gotten to be a part of, even if only from a looking in through a window view. The ALI community saved me when I needed it most and felt like I was the only one, yet knowing I can’t be. I still remember it clearly: it was a post of Mel’s at Stirrup Queens who first showed me the ALI community (with her post about pomegranates) and that I didn’t have to be alone. I couldn’t get enough and stuck around.  And I’m still here.

Thoughts on round two

I’m 38 years old today*. In many ways, it’s just another day in the life of me. In other ways, it’s me getting another year older. I don’t feel any different than I did yesterday. Birthdays just are.

This birthday has been a good one. We, the three of us, went downtown for a late breakfast and bought some yummy desserts to bring home and eat. My goodness, were they yummy! Mr Siili and Paxlet made me a cute card with their hand prints drawn on it, some stickers stuck to it and Mr Siili colored it in.


So many thoughts about being pregnant again. Some happy, some scared, but many scattered and confused.

I was going to call my clinic, where all of our previous treatments were done at and where we have 1 frozen embryo, as soon as they opened after summer holidays  (all of July). However, as AF was supposed to arrive on the 24th of July, I would have had to wait until the end of August. That is now a moot point. If this pregnancy sticks around, we won’t be using or needing that one little embryo.

I truly never thought I would get pregnant on my own, without lots of drugs and a doctor’s help. Yet, here I am. Why me? How did I/we get so lucky? Mind you, I’m not complaining, but this is what runs through my head. We’re excited, yet a bit scared.  Not about the pregnancy itself, but about bringing a new dimension into our happy family of three. As Mr Siili said to me, “we’re just getting used to this life with Paxlet”. How different is it going to be with another? Also, Paxlet has been so easy as a baby** and now a toddler. This second child could have colic, reflux, not want to sleep or a myriad other things. I know I dreamed about a sibling for Paxlet, but now that this is possibly happening, I’m a bit unsure and as I said, scared. Things will work themselves out, it will just take a bit of time.

Getting to experience pregnancy all over again is like  a dream come true!I truly enjoyed my pregnancy with Paxlet. I had very little morning sickness (mild nausea sometimes), I only spotted once around 7-8 weeks and my back didn’t kill me like I feared it would. Although, I do hope some things will be more relaxed as I know more of what to expect this time around. So far, I’m still checking for spotting each time i go to bathroom. Or maybe even more often. Some things die hard. I also can’t wait to do weekly pictures. I want to compare the differences in these pregnancies.

Twins? Oh no! Please no! I know the first time around I thought it would be sort of cool, but this time, no way. I know how much effort one baby takes, I don’t “need” two this time around. Looking a gift horse in the mouth much?

Again, gift horse. I’m sort of hoping for another boy. I know how boys are built now and I know what to do. But girls? They would have girlie parts! LOL. On a serious note, as always, I really just want that this baby sticks around and will be born healthy and happy.

I’m glad I’ve dragged my feet and that we still have most of Paxlet’s stuff. I have sold or given some things away, but the majority of it, we still have. We will need a new-to-us bouncy seat, nursing pillow and breast pads… I will also need some maternity clothes. I do still have my favorite black pants and those should work well during the winter! Yay!

This time around I’m going to tell some people earlier. I know that no matter what happens, I will tell these people. I would like their happiness and support no matter what. So far, I’ve told one of my brother’s (older of the two) already. I’ll tell I told my sister and my dad (& by default stepmom) if when we Skyped tonight. I will tell Mr Siili’s mom tomorrow (as for some silly reason Mr Siili doesn’t want to). I’m not sure about his siblings. They’ll learn at some point. My closest friends and I will be getting together on Thursday. I’ll tell them then. I’m excited about this and already know how I will tell them. *big grin* Work people can wait a bit, and FBb even longer.

All these thoughts, just swirling around in my head.This is such a strange place to be.


*So it’s after midnight here in Finland and technically no longer my birthday, but I haven’t gone to sleep yet, so I can still call it my birthday.

**Even when I was having a hard time with sleep and Pax wanting to be at my boobs all. Night. Long.