#MicroblogMonday – Random

A quick update on baby Gabriel that I mentioned last week. A third hospital has given the family a couple of options for after birth (via section). There is hope, but it really depends on how well Gabriel is doing when he is born. The family is satisfied with the plans of action. My thoughts are with them.


Today marks one month until Tadbit’s EDD.


I’m in a funk with finding a new book to read. I have one started in Finnish, which I really should read… But I want something in English besides the two Diana Gabaldon books/novellas that I am currently reading. My problem is that I am still thinking of the Outlander series and I just can’t get past the characters and their stories. I need to find something, other than another Diana Gabaldon book, to capture my mind for a while. Don’t get me wrong, I love everything I’ve read so far by DG, I just feel the need to read something different for a bit. Any suggestions?

MicroblogMonday For more microposts, go visit Mel’s post at Stirrup Queens.

35 weeks +1 day, #2

I started this last night, it got too late and so, I’m finishing it now.


This evening, I want to start with some thoughts about someone else. A lady in my birth group who is going through a very rough time, to say the least. Her son Gabriel, EDD two weeks after Tadbit, was diagnosed at 12 weeks with ectopia cordis – meaning his heart is growing outside his body. This is a very rare condition and she was told he wouldn’t survive past 20 weeks. She’s now 33 weeks along and he’s still doing well. However, she has just been told that the hospital that was going to help her with a planned c-section and surgery for Gabriel, will do nothing but comfort care when he is born. She is still seeking other options and hopes to find a surgeon and hospital that is still willing to help her soon. I’m keeping them in my thoughts and if you would like to donate towards Gabriel’s chance, you can follow this link.


At 35 weeks pregnant, that means I only have 35 days until the EDD. Holy crud! I just realized yesterday that Tadbit is going to be here within the next 5 weeks (or 6 or 7 weeks if she’s stubborn)! Eeeps! Five weeks sounds…so much closer and home stretch-like. Where has the time gone?!

Yesterday was my official last day at work until 2016. However, since I’ve been out sick since Friday, last week’s Thursday was my last day in the office (not counting the 3 hours I was there on Monday to finish a few things and get all my stuff).

Speaking of sick, I have been miserable! Coughing is the worst. Not only can I not curl up a bit to try and protect my stomach area from all the horrid coughing that would make my bump hurt and go hard, but I couldn’t help but pee myself (only a tiny bit) too many times to count. I did have fever and more tiredness than usual, but thankfully no full on body aches. When I went to the doctor on Monday, she heard a bit of rattle in my lower left lung and decided to put me on antibiotics, just in case so it wouldn’t have the chance to turn into something worse.

And speaking of appointments, I was supposed to have an appointment with my midwife on Monday, but either me or the midwife got our times mixed. Needless to say, i missed my neuvola appointment. Thankfully we were able to reschedule it for yesterday.

Everything was/is boringly normal, not that that is a bad thing. Weight gain (17 kg/37,4 lbs) is the same as with Paxlet at this time in pregnancy, still. Swelling is maybe a couple of weeks earlier than with Paxlet, but it isn’t so bad yet. I’ve only had to remove my wedding ring as the rest still fit. And I notice that some of my socks leave slight indents, more than usual, on my legs.

One of my two pair of black pants has a small hole in the crotch and on the bum. I desperately need to fix the holes so I can continue to wear the pants.

From what I have read on other blogs and in my birth group, I seem to be one of the few people who isn’t bothered by baby moving during the night. I am sure she moves at night, I do feel her when I happen to wake, but if she is moving around while I am sleeping, I continue to sleep. Lucky me, yeah?
I sleep well enough. Not nearly enough hours, but decent enough sleep when I do go to bed. There is no such thing as “tossing and turning” any more. It’s definitely a more thought out and planned process of turning over. I usually save switching from one side to the other after a bathroom trip and/or Paxlet wake-up (he needs a drink of water, his blanket put back on him, the ghost night light turned back on, pee trip, etc).

Tadbit moves quite a bit. There is a pattern to her movements, but I’ve not kept a record of them. It’s more like, oh yeah, I haven’t felt her for a bit, this seems to be around the time she should be moving again. And then she’s moving. However, she does seem to stretch and kick in the evening when Mr Siili and I are watching a show or two. Yips of pain from me and Mr Siili looking a bit concerned at my tummy.

I’ve noticed more hiccups lately, but not nearly as many as I remember Paxlet having. I think they are funny. (I also laugh when our cats get hiccups.)

It was confirmed by the midwife yesterday that Tadbit is head down, with her spine along my right side, but not yet engaged. Her head was “too far back”? Anyway, she does still slide around a bit. I’m still not concerned as I’m sure she’ll get into position soon.

A non-food aversion I’ve really had this pregnancy is cat puke. While never a pleasant thing to have to clean up, it has been a very gaggy issue this pregnancy.

I’m thankful this cold is winding down. It truly was making me miserable and difficult to carry out daily tasks.

I miss being able to walk anywhere. It’s difficult enough to just walk to the trash bin outside much less keep up with an active toddler or just go for a walk.

I know I should try and enjoy these last weeks of pregnancy, but I just don’t feel I have time. There is always something to be done, whether I actually do it or not is another issue. I do have moments of enjoyment, but not as much as with Paxlet’s pregnancy. This time around really is different.

I filled out the 19 page food and eating habits form of the last month for the T1D study this week. I also received my container of formula that we are to use, if we give Tadbit formula. And as Tadbit has stayed put past 35 weeks, we are ready to rock and roll with the study when she comes.

I have some friends coming over on Saturday. We’ll eat tacos, chat and maybe I’ll even put together a quick art project for the kids (some glitter glue, paper bits, stickers, etc). It’s always good to see friends and their kids. I only need to get the house a little bit tidied. I’m not going on a cleaning frenzy, but I would like to have the clutter picked up a bit, downstairs vacuumed, the bathroom cleaned and maybe a bit of spot mopping (the kitchen and under the table definitely need it).

I made a point of putting Paxlet’s hand on my tummy when Tadbit was moving about one evening and he seemed to enjoy it. He’s since asked me if the baby is awake or not. And then sometimes he’ll come to my bump, poke it and say “wake up baby” (in English!). I just about melt. Quite often Tadbit does wake up when Paxlet pokes at her.

Time for some baking

I bought 5 of these cute kid size loaf pans last week for a 1€ each. They have been calling out my name ever since. I think Paxlet and I will bake some banana bread soon to test them out.

With a half measuring cup for comparison.

With a half cup mearsure for comparison.

#MicroblogMonday – Library bus

I was going to bore you all with how sick I’ve been the last few days, the fact that I went to the doctor today and got antibiotics for the start of a lung infection, but then this happened:

Library bus
Monday is library bus day! This bus stops not too far from our house each week and I never knew! Paxlet and I waited with two friends (one who goes semi-regularly and the other who was there for the first time too) to get on the bus and choose 3 books. Paxlet was so excited to get on a library bus! I know we can go to the library proper, but we just never have*. This bus however is begging to be used. And I plan to use it more often!

Do you have library buses where you live? If you don’t have a library bus, would you want one to stop near you? Or do you prefer the real library?

*Paxlet has gone to the library several times with his daycare lady. I sort of feel bad that I’ve not ever taken him myself… However, we do have a decent amount of books at home that he hasn’t gotten totally bored with, yet.

MicroblogMonday For more microposts, go visit Mel’s post at Stirrup Queens.

34 weeks, #2

I’ve had a tickle in my throat since Tuesday. And it’s slowly progressed into a cough, which has gotten noticeably  worse this evening. It’s no longer just a cough, which was annoying enough, there is now post nasal drip and I’m feeling a bit feverish. Ugh.

I have no idea how much weight I’ve gained at the moment. I’ll find out Monday at my next neuvola appointment. About 3 weeks ago, I had gained 13,8 kilos (30,36 lbs). With a 3 day difference, I weighed the same with Paxlet at 31 weeks. It’ll be interesting to see if I do keep the same weight gain as last time all the way through. In any case, I lost it all last time, I’m sure I will do it again this time.

No new stretch marks, yet.

Sleep is decent, although I’m generally tired no matter how much sleep I get. I’m definitely noticing that if I get woken in the middle of the night, I might not be able to fall back asleep as easily as usual. I remember it was like this at the end of pregnancy with Paxlet. I was very thankful for my phone and ebooks.

Tadbit’s movements are getting much more pronounced and painful! Fun to feel, but when they hurt, not so much. The other day at work she was kicking me something fierce. I guess it was apparent and written on my face, as my team leader looked at me and asked if that is what was going on.*
This evening, as I was reading Paxlet his bedtime story, I moved his hand to my tummy and his eyes got big and round and then he asked me if the baby was moving. (It was moving, but every time I put his hand on my tummy, Tadbit stopped moving!) It was so sweet! I’ll definitely have to find more times for Paxlet to feel.

My back has started getting more sore. I generally have some level of back ache in my daily life, but it is now getting worse. It’s a whole ordeal to turn over in bed, so I find that I don’t roll from side to side as much as normal. And that’s making my back worse. I also apparently slept funky last night and my neck has been sore all day today.
I’m getting tons of Braxton Hicks these days, especially towards the evening. And if I’ve walked more than “normal” that day. More than normal can be across the street at lunch time to get food.
The urgency to pee has increased a lot this week. However, I think depending on how Tadbit is sitting, she can reduce the flow to a trickle. It all comes out…just slower than normal. Hahah

I miss being able to stretch the kinks and cramps out of my low back and body. It just isn’t physically possible to twist, stretch, turn and wiggle in a way that will relieve the pressure.

I look forward to my neuvola appointment on Monday. And I only have 4 more days of work before maternity leave starts!

I’m so over this pregnancy!

Only one more week until we qualify for the diabetes study. I don’t have any worries or impending signs that Tadbit will be here soon, but I am looking forward to being able to participate in this study.

A funny moment this week: a neighbor lady that I ride the same bus with to work almost every day only just realized I was pregnant! She was asking if I had next week off for winter break and I told her that I’d be working Monday through Wednesday, but then I’d be starting my maternity leave. She just looked at me blankly and said “maternity leave? what’s that?” (We’re talking in Finnish, so it could be possible that I used the wrong words. hahaha). I said to her “you know, when someone is pregnant and the baby will be due soon…”. And then I could see the light bulb come on and she said “oh, a 2nd kid?!”. LOL. As we continued to talk, she explained that she new Paxlet was in daycare and that I didn’t have any more maternity leave time with him, which is why she was a bit confused. I guess my jackets have been hiding my bump better than I thought!

#MicroblogMonday – Sledding Sunday

Last weekend we were at this friends house helping to make the slide (ok, Mr Siili helped and I watched, with Paxlet getting in the way helping some).

Yesterday was Sledding Sunday aka Laskiaissunnuntai aka Shrove Sunday in Finland. It is a day of sledding and eating laskiaispulla (sweet buns with whipped cream and jam). Anything else is a bonus!

The weather was -6 °C (21,2 °F), sunny and no wind! Perfect for sledding. I, unfortunately didn’t do any sledding, but had fun watching everyone else. Paxlet only when down once, with Mr Siili and I missed it! He’s just not into it yet as it’s still a bit fast and scary for him. Paxlet’s cousin, on the other hand, had the most trips down the hill of anyone (he’s 1,5 years older than Paxlet).

Our hosts grilled makkara (sausage) and had hot juice for everyone while sledding. Once the sun went down, everyone headed inside for laskiaispulla, hot chocolate, Karjalanpiirakka (Karelian pastry) with egg butter, cookies, juice and tea.


Family portrait.
(Mr Siili, Paxlet, myself)


Paxlet’s uncle (Mr Siili’s brother) and cousin coming down the hill.


There was even an ice rink! On the frozen lake.


An over all view of the proceedings. I’m standing out on the lake.


Rabbit tracks.


Bird (crow?) tracks.


Paxlet and Mr Siili watching the sledding below.


Paxlet and myself just before heading inside.

MicroblogMonday For more microposts, go visit Mel’s post at Stirrup Queens.

33 weeks + 1 day, #2

Thursday was my first day back at work after a week of sick leave. My bump was so sore and I was exhausted in the evening. We had a work meeting that took us across the street for it and I think that was too much walking for me. The meeting was seriously just across the street, less than a block away! I cried yesterday evening. Tears of pain and frustration. Paxlet has been a bit difficult to put to bed lately and I get frustrated because I can’t move and bend like I need to, Paxlet wiggles more than I can handle and it all just makes me even more sore and tired. Unfortunately, Mr Siili just won’t do in Paxlet’s eyes for the bedtime routine. Ugh.

Eight more days at work before I start maternity leave. I am so ready for it! With Paxlet, I felt I could have easily worked another 2 weeks or so. Not this time!

Even during my sick leave, I was still quite tired most mornings and days. I did manage to nap a day or two. I’m just not a napper. However, I feel totally tired, sometimes exhausted to be back at work. I sleep ok when I sleep, but between semi-frequent night bathroom trips and Paxlet waking up, however brief, during the night, I’m not getting enough shut eye.

If Mr Siili’s comments are anything to go by, this Tadbit-bump has visibly grown even more lately! I know I definitely feel it! And the winter pants I bought barely a month ago show it too! They are now quite snug and the button doesn’t want to button up, comfortably. Thank goodness for suspenders.

I think I might be a horse/old nag these days. I have become quite swayback lately. I just can’t seem to stand up straight, no matter how much I try. I also lean back to counter balance this growing bump. All of this just makes my back achy-sore. I am so ready! And so adds another animal to my list of animals I feel like.

Tadbit has been really pushing and stretching lately. It hurts! She still has her spine (and bum up?) along the right side of my bump. The last few nights she pushes around so much that the right side of my bump is larger and hard, while the left side is deflated and squishy-empty. Plus, she’s definitely getting stronger with her movements. I yelped again last night and was almost in tears over the pain. I am so over it!

I have been eating way too much junk food in the evenings. I might almost call it a craving, but it isn’t for anything specific most nights, just junk food: salty and sweet. Again, this was the same as with Paxlet. I avoided sweets like the plague in the beginning of the pregnancy and then during the 3rd trimester, I pigged out!

I was totally looking forward to the last Ice Cream Social I organized before maternity leave at work today. It’s Friday the 13th and the day before Valentine’s day. (I love Friday the 13th! V-day, meh, just an excuse.) The ice cream (6 different flavors) and toppings (candies, nuts, sauces, cookies, etc) were yummy! What more could anyone want? I did eat way too much though. I’m not talking about eating for two…I more like ate for 3 or 4. The downside is that I did have to walk to the store to buy the ice cream, which was only a block away. But it was too much for my achy breaky bump and back. I’m quite sore again tonight.

I’m managing with the maternity clothes I have, especially since I only have a 8 more days at work. I have been wearing sweatpants at home and even out of the house…to the store! That is so not me. I cringe at myself, but they are warm and comfortable.

We’re still no where on names. I guess it is hard to get anywhere on names when they aren’t even discussed yet. I’m (more) fine with it, this time, as I know Mr Siili will need to see the baby before he can think about putting a name to it. I however have been emailing myself all sorts of names. Some names I actually like and others that aren’t so bad and fit my criteria, but most likely won’t get anywhere near our top 5. I really really like the name Lydia, but it so happens to be my car’s name. I think I could get over it and so could my car, but I don’t think Mr Siili could. LOL

The other day, Paxlet told me that we need to buy the baby its own potty. I asked if Tadbit could share his potty and he agreed. A neighbor boy has a younger sister and she was up and awake earlier this week while outside and Paxlet was so interested in her. He kept wanting to be up in my arms to see her. And he waved at her. She’s only 8 months old. The last few weeks, Paxlet has been kissing the bump as part of his bedtime routine. Talk about melt my heart!

I am so tired of leaking. I wear a liner and nothing happens. I take said liner off and I leak. It’s just so gross and leaky. I do however like not having a period. Which reminds me…I have no idea what we’ll do for birth control once Tadbit is born. IUD again? Nuva Ring? Condoms (hahahahahahahaha)? The snip for Mr Siili? The snip for myself?

I don’t think I’ve been too moody. I’m sure Mr Siili would have a different opinion.

I do know that I am ready for my body to be my own again. Not being able to bend over, even while sitting in a chair, much less while standing and bending at the hips/waist, is the pits! I so want to stretch and pop my back without sharp twinges and pains. I’m thankful for not being too swollen yet. I don’t have horrible hip pain. I sleep decently enough. I am able to get around. I don’t have anything worrisome in this pregnancy. All in all, things are quite easy for me, again, yet it is harder this time around. I’m just ready for this pregnancy to be done already. It’s nothing like I imagined it would be the second time around.

I seem to be full of exclamation points this post!

Have I mentioned that I’m really ready for this pregnancy to be done?!