Paxlet is 19 months old today. And yesterday just before nap time, 1 day shy of 19 months, was our last breastfeeding attempt/session. At the beginning of this month, I wrote that I could tell my time breastfeeding Paxlet was coming to an end. I just didn’t realize it would be this soon.
For the last 6 months, Paxlet has really only been having milk in the morning when he woke up and just before going to bed. On weekends, that is how he would fall asleep for naps. But the last few days, when Paxlet would say that he wanted milk (boob), he has been biting after drinking for only a few seconds. (Not a full on chomp, but with enough teeth to give me a shock and ouch feeling.) When this would happen, I’d notice that he had stopped drinking, clamped his teeth on my nipple and then look up at me with a mischievous grin. Ugh! When I would yelp and tell him no, or all done, he’d just laugh. After this happening 3 consecutive times just before bed, I figured this weekend would be the last. I’d see if he wanted ‘boob’ for his nap times (only) and then we’d just be done. As it happened, he chomped on me already after only a few seconds of drinking while going down for his nap on Saturday. That was it! I was done. Paxlet has not asked for boob and I have not offered since. We are officially done.
I had no idea how long I’d breastfeed. I had originally thought at least 1 year and then see what happens from there. After the year ‘marker’, I figured Paxlet would let me know when he is done and that he has! I am just glad I realized we were coming to an end in this chapter of Paxlet’s life, so I could take the time to appreciate it and reflect on it.
I’m not quite sure how I feel about this change. On one hand, I am happy that I was able to breastfeed for so long and relatively easily. However, I’m a bit sad that this time is over. Paxlet is getting so big and doesn’t always want to snuggle as I put him down for bed. I’m also a bit…relieved, maybe? This stopping process, if you can call it that, was quite easy and painless (minus a few small chomps). I think I’m also a bit happy to get my boobs back. They are all mine (and Mr Siili’s) now.
Breastfeeding is done. I can go back to my regularly scheduled allergy medications and none too soon. Birch season is just around the corner!