Lately, I’ve been having a rough time with life, missing my mom and how long it is taking to get pregnant. You can see some of this in two of my recent posts: here and a little bit here. About a week ago, I decided I couldn’t handle keeping all of my thoughts and emotions to myself (and Mr Siili) anymore. I am a social person and I haven’t been talking much or sharing much with my girl friends. Sure, I’ve told them about the good times and the happy times and a little bit about my sad times, but not nearly enough of it all. So, I sent an email to my closest 4 girl friends and asked if they had time to meet up sometime in the near future. Lo and behold, we (4 out of 5 of us) managed a Sunday brunch get-together in under a week!! I sent the first email Tuesday night at 10:51pm and today we met. That almost never happens! I feel much better after today’s gab session, even if we did cry a bit.
We enjoyed an amazing buffet brunch with the sun shining on us.The food was plentiful and yummy. I had 2 huge plates of food (fruits galore, meat, mashed & wedged potatoes, mushrooms, olives, shrimp, crawdads, sun-dried tomatoes, etc) and a slice of cheese cake and carrot cake for dessert. (It’s now 8pm and I’m still not really hungry.) While we ate and for a while after, we caught up on each others’ lives. All the good stuff, first. Before I could get my courage up and truly say what I needed to say, one friend had to leave, as she lives in another town. I was very glad that she joined us, but I’ll have to talk with her more at a later date!
Then when it was just the 3 of us, the talk turned to a bit more serious note. That’s when I felt it was time to let them know how I’ve really been feeling lately. I told them that I just couldn’t keep it to myself anymore. I need my friends and I need my friends to be there for me, as I want to be there for them. My friends are my (chosen) family, especially when my blood family is half a world away.
These two friends of mine not only listened to what I was saying, but they understood what I was trying to get across! It wasn’t just me pouring out my heart ache and sorrow and a bit of happiness too, but they shared their aches and pains also. It went to show, like it has been coming more apparent to me lately, that we as humans all have these burdens that we either feel aren’t worth it to share with others or we don’t want to make our burden someone else’s burden. Some of the things my friends shared just broke my heart, but I am better for knowing that they put enough trust in me and our friendship to share. I also feel lighter for having shared my own sorrows. I truly hope we can continue in this vein and call on each other when we need it most.
Today was a perfect autumn day: a chill in the air, sun, friends, food and chat.